29 octubre 2013
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Dejar de regodearme en su dolor donde yo misma me reconocí. [el "donde" le asigna al dolor una característica de lugar, en el que es muy cómodo estar] Debí suponer que era alguien distinto [en los dos sentidos, alguien diferente de lo anterior, alguien diferente de lo que pensé en ese momento]. Salir del papel de salvadora que lo ponía en deuda conmigo. [¿acaso no se traduce esto en mera lástima?]
27 mayo 2013
26 mayo 2013
En terapia descubrí que el psicoterapéuta/psicólogo/psiquiatra es la única persona con la que puedo hablar de mis problemas sin causarle tristeza/estrés/enojo. Sin embargo, es obvio que no le importa más allá de intercambiar una propuesta de solución por dinero. Quizá es una prueba más de que realmente estamos solos (no sé si todos, pero al menos yo sí) y si de pura casualidad logras mantener a tus demonios lejos de tu vida cotidiana, puedes tener una buena vida. Si no, pues... no lo sé... supongo que o te dejas llevar y te vuelves una de esas personas nubladas, atascadas en placebos, o te mantienes luchando hasta que te de un infarto de tanto estrés. ¿Hay alguien ahí?
04 mayo 2013
01 mayo 2013
31 marzo 2013
Some people are sad because they think they are a burden to others.
Some people are so alone that they would love to be a burden to others.
To be a burden means that someone cares enough to not let you behind.
Am I a burden? should I be left behind? should I be buried alive?
If i'm not useful anymore, why am I still living?
Maybe i'm not even a burden and i'm just so pretentious to think that someone cares enough for me.
Years ago I thought I was smart and open minded. But now I am just a jerk. Another middle class dumb fuck. What potential still lies within me?
Should I end it all?
How I envy those without a troubled mind.
Now I see why L was so mad at me years ago.
Who would want to spend time with a depressive idiot. A useless, gloom idiot with zero creativity and no talent.
So many regretful things.
The memories that still haunt me.
I wish I could start over again.
Some people are so alone that they would love to be a burden to others.
To be a burden means that someone cares enough to not let you behind.
Am I a burden? should I be left behind? should I be buried alive?
If i'm not useful anymore, why am I still living?
Maybe i'm not even a burden and i'm just so pretentious to think that someone cares enough for me.
Years ago I thought I was smart and open minded. But now I am just a jerk. Another middle class dumb fuck. What potential still lies within me?
Should I end it all?
How I envy those without a troubled mind.
Now I see why L was so mad at me years ago.
Who would want to spend time with a depressive idiot. A useless, gloom idiot with zero creativity and no talent.
So many regretful things.
The memories that still haunt me.
I wish I could start over again.
20 marzo 2013
15 febrero 2013
04 febrero 2013
31 enero 2013
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